Made my day!

I got a call today from my attorney who told me that my hearing before the social security judge tomorrow was cancelled. She said that the judge had called her today and said that he agreed that I was disabled and that the evidence in my file was overwhelmingly in my favor. I am so relieved, but, she said it may take 3 or more months to start getting any money coming in. I don't think I can make it that long!
I am a little mad about this whole process even though I finally won my case. Why did it take so long for me to win my case? It's not like the judge was looking at any different evidence than the social security examiner's and doctor's who had previously said that I could still work even though I have this disease. By the time I get any money coming in then it will be almost 3 years since I last worked. My brother told me that every time they deny people benefits then they are trying to starve you out! I had never considered that before and it hit me like a ton of bricks. It made so much sense that if they keep turning you down then you might be so desperate that despite the amount of pain you are in you will go out and get a job and they won't have to give you benefits. How sad! Unfortunately I have to believe that they are doing this because it just doesn't make any sense to me otherwise. I am grateful that once I start getting my monthly check I won't have to worry about whether I am going to be able to put gas in my car to get to the doctor or store or how I am going to be able to fix things when they break. I feel that my government let me down like I am sure they have done this to many other people out there! I hope one day that this system that most people pay taxes into for things like this gets fixed. Social Security is suppose to be for retirement and if you become disabled and cannot work. If this was a private company that promised benefits and then tried to get out of paying them then the government would be all over them filing lawsuits and threatening to throw them in jail. What a double standard! What a shame!